“Don’t be afraid to fall in love. It’s the only thing that matters in life.” -Kelly Canter [Country Strong]

Tomorrow is so exciting, and next Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday… this is fucking awesome! :D

Memories

The happy memories that vanish, are always worse than the cruel ones you have to forget. Cause the happy ones linger whenever you see the person that caused them, and even if they aren’t the root of your happiness anymore, you never forget. Happy memories provide an excuse when those characters pierce you with pain, sadness and regret. It’s the happy memories that inject you with a disease that can’t be cleansed with a cure. It’s the happy memories that need to be replaced, that need to be improved, that need to last forever and return everyday with the same person instead of corrupting relationships and ideals. It’s the happy memories that keep us holding on.

Well that was a wonderful evening :)

I shall call it a date. It was a date. Yeah. Anyways pretty much in summary I got to meet this guy today that I had been thinking of for a bit over a month to be honest. I was all worried about being disappointed or not enjoying myself or being nervous that I wasn’t really prepared for it turning out nicely. Anywho… he is rather cute, tall, and thick, and I like that. He paid for me when we went ice skating with my friends Caitlyn and James… which is how I met him. He is my friend’s bestie kinda thing. So yeah but he paid and we ended up holding hands while skating cause I was horrific for awhile there… but yeah he helped and James and Caitlyn also taught me and I quite enjoyed myself. Later we went back to his place and ate some popcorn and talked before I drove home but it was great. I hugged him before I left and I was just happy, happiness that takes over instead of just suffocating as a smile. I had the widest grin on the way home and now I’m even more exited for my birthday weekend on the Sunshine Coast. His name is Thomas, and I think I like him.

Last night felt like a movie, it felt like Serendipity.

I feel like I’m getting ahead of myself here but that’s always what I do… I suppose I’ll mellow out later but tonight feels like a dream. It feels comfortable and fun, it feels as though I’ll remember this day and look forward to another. Tonight I smiled, the wide kinda smile that you can’t even hide cause your cheeks get red and you just laugh and smile when somebody looks at you kinda smile, I smiled out of pure happiness and excitement.

It seems I'm understanding life more and more with each new day that appears aside the sunset.

I’m understanding friends and what friends are for… I mean that’s rather sad when it took me till College to realize what friends are supposed to do. I suppose I just had some bad friends, some bad boyfriends and my heart got crushed and I thought it was normal. That’s just sad. However, lately I’m realizing more and more that friends are supposed to be there for you. You should be able to trust your friends to catch you when you fall, keep secrets, teach you new things and help you out even when you don’t ask. It makes me so happy that my friend Kyle has been helping me with English homework and offers to comeover when I’m sick. My friend Amy has been helping me with Woman’s Studies, gave me free booze and buys me Tims every now and than. My friend Bronwyn helped edit some homework and I know she would be there for me if I asked, because she has. Caitlyn was so patient with me today when I was flipping out about directions so she gave me the easiest ones she could think of and I arrived at my destination just fine and I am so grateful for that cause if I wasn’t confident in driving there I wouldn’t have gone… and tonight seemed like it was the beginning of something, something special. Maybe? I realized a week ago that my friend Diana and I have gotten through so many fights and we are so close and Rachel is so empathetic and even Dustin I consider to be a great friend of mine. I’m happy because my life isn’t going to be all happy and energetic but yet… lately I keep getting a better grasp on what matters in life and honestly it seems that was James because he made me realize I was important and what friends are for so than I tried understanding it and realized that it’s okay for me to tell my friends what I need to be comfortable. I made sure I had good directions, I made sure I asked for help for my homework and stuff like that… stuff I wouldn’t normally do. I guess it’s just life and you need to discover things at your own pace, it’s sad it took me so long to put the pieces together but it seems the puzzle pieces are appearing one at a time.

I considered tonight a date and I'd go on a second :)

*After going skating with some friends and a new boy*
Caitlyn: Well I had fun.
James: So did I. What about you Megan, did you have fun?
Me: Yeah *massive smile*
Caitlyn: Haha awh.
James: So do you like him?
Me: Yeah.
James: Here comes the twenty questions.
Me: Did he say anything about me?
James: He said you were absolutely gorgeous.
Me: Really? :) When?
James: While we were skating :)
Me: *massive smile*