It seems I'm understanding life more and more with each new day that appears aside the sunset.

I’m understanding friends and what friends are for… I mean that’s rather sad when it took me till College to realize what friends are supposed to do. I suppose I just had some bad friends, some bad boyfriends and my heart got crushed and I thought it was normal. That’s just sad. However, lately I’m realizing more and more that friends are supposed to be there for you. You should be able to trust your friends to catch you when you fall, keep secrets, teach you new things and help you out even when you don’t ask. It makes me so happy that my friend Kyle has been helping me with English homework and offers to comeover when I’m sick. My friend Amy has been helping me with Woman’s Studies, gave me free booze and buys me Tims every now and than. My friend Bronwyn helped edit some homework and I know she would be there for me if I asked, because she has. Caitlyn was so patient with me today when I was flipping out about directions so she gave me the easiest ones she could think of and I arrived at my destination just fine and I am so grateful for that cause if I wasn’t confident in driving there I wouldn’t have gone… and tonight seemed like it was the beginning of something, something special. Maybe? I realized a week ago that my friend Diana and I have gotten through so many fights and we are so close and Rachel is so empathetic and even Dustin I consider to be a great friend of mine. I’m happy because my life isn’t going to be all happy and energetic but yet… lately I keep getting a better grasp on what matters in life and honestly it seems that was James because he made me realize I was important and what friends are for so than I tried understanding it and realized that it’s okay for me to tell my friends what I need to be comfortable. I made sure I had good directions, I made sure I asked for help for my homework and stuff like that… stuff I wouldn’t normally do. I guess it’s just life and you need to discover things at your own pace, it’s sad it took me so long to put the pieces together but it seems the puzzle pieces are appearing one at a time.