Everything is such an ugly blur of motionless feelings and devoured thoughts.

My life went so fast from happiness and settled in comfort to a turn of loneliness and desperately reaching out for somebody’s hand. I am stronger now, yes. I am more outgoing and have been enjoying smiles and laughs among friends but yet there is this whole other side on those cloudy, rainy afternoons. It’s so odd, like a floating leaf with a resting pebble simply waiting to sink. I lost my boyfriend, bestfriend and a few other friends somewhere in there and I just cannot fathom all the goodbyes. A part of me has become numb to it and my trust is lost with everybody else in the moment, it seems everything I say gets blurted out somewhere and It’s just annoying nonsense I can’t speak of. I go out and dance at parties and that’s my favorite place to be, the movement of my body and the curves of my hips all twirled up into a medicine that could cure the threat of tears. The site of me looks average, but my insides are burning up into ash and soon enough I won’t have enough room to hide the pain. I believe that the only cure for heartache is love so until than I’ll have as much fun as I can with my friends or dancing to my favorite song or having a few coolers. Life is beautiful but I really wish Summer would glisten the skies with a pinch more sunshine.