Those nights you wish you were too drunk to remember every little detail.

Yeah those ones, they can be a morning, day or night. The ones you wish you could just erase from your memory cause it’s only haunting you. The words, sentences or just looks people gave you that you couldn’t forget or just shake off like it was nothing. I really wish I could. Stupid arguments I had with past friends, and phone calls that ended with yelling and hanging up instead of “goodnight, I’ll ttyl.” Those people that put you down by saying things like “you can’t sing” or “your fat” or whatever they said to you that you couldn’t just chuckle at and bitchslap. It’s the things people told you and you took them to heart, so deep that they reoccur every second day or every hour on the dot just to linger as a ghost, as if you deserve to be haunted for a very long time. It’s sickening. It’s like some horrible disease that people pass onto one another even when they know what they’re inflicting, even when they know the symptoms upon symptoms of damage they are throwing on people. It fucking hurts, it haunts, it hollows people out until they look at a skeleton in the mirror and ask if they are worthy enough to even smile anymore. It’s like some devil is on a crusade to inhale all the existing hope left on this planet, to leave us in ruins. That’s what happens, because that’s what happens when the people you love betray you. That’s what happens when you fall for somebody and they crush you. That’s what happens when expectations meet reality, and it happens all the time.